We have a house! And while I'm very excited right now, my heart remains sad.
I've angry, frustrated, and irritable while waiting for a house. These emotions have been directed at God, Derek, and my other loved ones. I acted terribly. All because I didn't trust God to come through. I've seen Him do amazing things and I didn't trust Him.
I think back to how it felt when I lost the trust of somebody I loved. It hurt-bad. And I'm just a sinful human being who deserved to lose that trust. God obviously didn't do a thing to lose my trust. He sent His Son to die on the cross for me. He redeemed me. He comforts me. He keeps my children and husband safe. He provides my material needs. And I let him down because He didn't fit into my time table.
I'm deeply ashamed and remorseful. I'm just thankful He's forgiving.
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This can be a teachable moment where you will remember in the future God's Faithfulness and how he can be trusted even when you didn't think he could. One more thing under your belt to help you in the future.
R <><
I second Rachel! :)
And I'm so excited you have a house!!!
What a great post. You obviously have a very humble attitude and if you can recognize your mistakes then you can repent and move forward in your relationship with Christ. You are facing the same thing that we all face. I know that I fall far short of where I should be for God every day.
Have you moved yet?
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