I Know It's Been A While

I've been struggling lately. The funny thing is that I can't exactly pin point what I'm struggling with.

I feel inadequate when it comes to motherhood and being a wife. I've been so irritable. That isn't like me. I truly enjoy being home with my children, but lately everything they do gets on my nerves. I find myself yelling at them and just writing this makes me want to cry. My precious children trust me and love me. I've been so selfish. I think that's part of the reason I haven't posted in so long-I'm embarrassed.

I truly don't know what is wrong. I try to pray and read, but I feel like I'm talking to a wall. It is so difficult. I just thought I'd share my struggles from the past few weeks.

My Secret Struggle Is Not So Secret Anymore

It's not a secret anymore because I am going to share it with you. I'm going to share because I would like lots of feedback.

I struggle with my devotions. Oh how I want them. Oh how I long to have that wonderful intimate time with my Lord to be revitalized and nourished. But every time I sit down I don't know what to do. I pray and then just sit there.

Do you guys have any devotional books that you use? This is weighing heavy on my heart. I would appreciate any tips or suggestions you may have.

Thanks and God bless!